Hello. This post probably have the most boring title ever that I can came up with.

I got my PT3 result yesterday and I didn't get the result that I wanted but I'm not that sad over it or anything because I've constantly told myself that I have to accept the truth. My mom said she's quite happy with it and I honestly don't know if she's trying to make a joke or reassure me that she's really fine with it. My dad didn't say anything about it. As usual. Anyways, we went to the mall after we got home from school to get lunch, get a new school bag for me and my sister (because my brother apparently wants to use mine for next year) AND TO GET A GUITAR!! FOR ME!!! My mom said consider it as a gift for the result which I think is.... not... worth enough considering the fact that my result is not even that good and moderately look like trash, but I'm just going to be thankful for everything I have for now.

Now that I got my result, I'm just waiting and hoping and praying that I'll get the chance to get into a boarding school. You don't even know how bad I want it. That's the only thing I'm worried about for now (besides trying to learn the guitar) because I decided to make a drastic change to my life and getting into a boarding school may help me to do so although I'm not sure if it's a good decision. Next year is the only time where I can get the chance to meet new people, experience new things, explore new places (although I'm going to stay in the boarding school for like 2 years if I managed to enter) and I'm sure I would be so devastated if I couldn't make it. I know I can do all of those maybe in a few more years besides next year, but I just want to make a quick change for now. In fact, I was more worried about my chance of getting into a boarding school rather than my PT3 result.

I want to get away from this town and from the people here even though I have nothing against them. I just want to make a change. And make me open my eyes a bit to see what my life would have been if it's not the same as my current one.

Bye.

(26/12) +edit:  I forgot to write something here after I post this. We ate at the food court of the mall and my family and I were sitting beside this group of Chinese college students (I assume) which there is a girl and 2 guys. My mom and my seat were the closest to them so we can hear most of the things they were talking about and also because they were obnoxiously loud.

But anyways, I heard them talking about their primary school friends (or just friends in general) and they were literally judging about them. They show photos to each other and talk about how they dress and how they look in the photo. And it made me quite.... uncomfortable, to say the least. They were even laughing about this guy's outfit and how they think that most people's fashion sense are ugly and such. Just to make it clear, they were wearing shorts and basic t-shirt so I don't know what them think that it's okay to judge the hell out of someone while they're not even that perfect.

I'm not a saint and innocent and it's not like I've never judge anyone before but the things they said.... it made my trust issue worse.