I just realized that there's nothing fun or special going on in my life. I literally do the same thing every single day. It doesn't matter if it's on the weekend or weekdays or holidays, I just do the exact same thing. Like seriously. I'll do my homeworks, go to my laptop shitloads of time in a day, talk to my mom and sister, read a book, workout for like an hour or something and do some housechores.
Oh, and I also don't go out that much and the average amount of time that I go out with my family is only like 2-3 times in a month. But most of the time I just don't want to go out because I don't have any mood or the feel to go out, idek maaan. I also envy (just a little bit) at those people that can go out hang out with their friends or family whenever they want and go outside.
I also don't have a good social life. WHICH MAKE IT EVEN MORE WORSER. My parents don't like the idea of me going out with my friends that easily. They will be like freaking out if I ask them to go hang out or meet with my friends, and they'll ask me questions that are not irrelevant at all. Some teenagers out there can just go out and hang out with their friends just by texting or calling them and arrange something to do, and that's it.
And during the weekend is more worser. Yes, I don't have to go to school and worry about homeworks that much, but the weekend just mean that I'm going to rot slowly in my room, and do nothing except laying on my bed and breathe. And with my phone in my hand ahah. I never do anything productive during the weekends, and it makes me feel so worthless and fat because I literally don't do anything (except homeworks and some housechores ugh). At least I can go meet my friends at school, but that doesn't mean that I like school, because school = prison/dungeon/living hell for students.
I also think about going to classes that have something to do about improving my talents or something on the weekend, like an Art class where it will teach me to paint (because I think I'm good at it? idk ;~;) and it sounds fun. I would really be glad if my mom would find a class and register me to take some lessons.
Oh and I can feel that 2013 is going to be kind of decent and good for me, because it look like there's nothing wrong going on except the fact that I'm becoming slightly stressful because of school. Ok bye :3
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