The past two days is so tiring and it's making me feel so stress. School is just a huge mess, and hectic and I'm really really tired because of it. I need to do homeworks until late night, I have tuitions on some nights and need to do house chores in the morning.
On Tuesday, I went to my new tuition that my mom already registered for me (although I don't even know that she actually did it). I take 4 classes which is Sejarah, Geo, Math and Science. The classes is on Tuesday and Friday night. I got to learn 1 subject for 1 hour, which means - Tuesday; Math and Geografi & Friday; Science and Sejarah.
Before I went to the tuition, I had some issues which made me kind of upset and angry. The cause of it is because I was trying to find my denim jeans to wear for during the tuition and it's nowhere to be found in the house. I searched it since last November you guys (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻ And my mom just laughed and made fun of me because I always want and use the things that I usually don't have at the time and I literally forget or don't care about the other things that I already have (bad habits urgh)
The tuition is still new so that means such little number of students which means no fun at all ;__; They only have 2-3 students in Form 2 (including me), look how boring that is! :( And the fact that the other person in Form 2 just made me lol-ed. We go to the same school since primary school and we're in the same class since last year, and then we ended up going to the same tuition also is just... idek what to say about this omg
And on Wednesday, I swear to God I have never felt that tired before. I feel so weak, tired, my head feels heavy and my mind is so drowsy. And on that night, I have some kind of a breakdown and I cried because of homeworks and school.
At first, I was actually pissed off at some of my classmates on Twitter (i don't bash or send hate tweets directly just like that okay). It's because I asked one of my classmates which is OBVIOUSLY on Twitter at that time, I'm really sure because she's mentioning with my other classmates. So I decided to ask her the homework for Geography because I'm not sure which one to do.
And after a while, she did tweet me back what to do, but I still have some problems on it because there's this page where you need to draw and stuffs, so I ask her again if we need to draw it because it look complicated and have a lot of work to do for a lazy-ass bitch like me. She didn't reply me back after that so tweeted at my own Twitter page about the Geography homeworks. I only asked if we need to draw the map or not, and not even one single person reply me. I only asked do we really need to draw the map, it's not like I'm begging and asking for the answers of the homeworks sheesh.
I already finished my other homework at that time, so I thought it's okay if I waited for at least someone to reply my previous question about Geo. I waited for like an hour or something and it's getting late, and still, no answers. I get so pissed off and I curse and swear so much because I was so stressed and tired, and I just want to go to sleep or read a book and not doing this shitty homeworks.
And then Naz tweeted, saying "Reply tweet dhia pls. She asked about geo takkan takde sorang nk jawab." and that's when people started replying me about my fucking simple question. I actually feel fucking worthless at that time because everyone started replying me after Naz tweeted that and I just realized that what if they're only answering me, because of Naz? Wait nevermind.
The only thing I don't like about school is that the teachers have really high hopes and expectation on the students. So whenever we make mistakes like not being able to complete all of the homeworks they give or not answering the questions they ask, they think that we're not being good and smart enough.
The fact that this is only the first week of school is just fucked up because I don't expect this to happen. Ok bye.
The only thing I don't like about school is that the teachers have really high hopes and expectation on the students. So whenever we make mistakes like not being able to complete all of the homeworks they give or not answering the questions they ask, they think that we're not being good and smart enough.
The fact that this is only the first week of school is just fucked up because I don't expect this to happen. Ok bye.
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